Emptiness – A hollow treasure

What is it like to live in a world filled with impossibilities? Everyday, at least for the past 22 years I have begun to question the impossible which discourages and thwartsthe possible activity of the mind which seems to resurge with new energy of ideals, old patterns and even forgotten plans of implementation which still continues to get thwarted by an impossible factor in the neighbouIng environment. Blame the institution or simply apply a Java or HTML for for hundred years to make your losses minimal to continue living on debts. Try everything to race ahead of expenditure to avoid the credit. Is there a gap between spending and saving and does energy drain and exhaust when we depend money while creative intelligence rejuvenates increasingly while saving up?

In the process of a busy schedule there is a mind constantly looking to understand itself as creative genius and original. The mind does not have sufficient memory to realise that the original idea was picked from a soap advertisement or a commercial or a Bill Gates who is unwilling to share anything original except multiplication of his thought.

So, are we relying on an OS believing it to be the opening Window to a world or universe of immense possibilities where knowledge is infinite? If knowledge is infinite and we are reaching to realise the definition of infinity the definitely we cannot rely on ideas of pre-sold memories which are simple mantras to secure our destiny.

Infinite knowledge is a treasure but how to imagine it may be the trend of the mind. But we still fail to come close to discover THAT which gives birth to this infinity. So, relying on an idea from Bill secures one form of distributing his knowledge of Windows which operates at a governed will and this will is an occupied state of memory clogging our hollow treasure. This memory is just an education to empower the money by opening one Window to help people arrange and believe everything visible is the product of an immense impossibility of the memory and memory is never empty.

But if education has empowered the money, the energy spent has been used from a container and this container may just be a borrowed jug or a formula bought over by many to learn how to manufacture a jug while forgetting and not even coming close to noticing our innate ability to see the jug can hold emptiness.

The mind can decide to fill the jug with stones, sand, pebbles or diamonds, but water becomes the quintessential treasure. So, where do we store our minds and is our mind an object of perception and are we constantly believing this object to be the unimaginable will of creativity or creative intelligence? As much as we continue to fill up it will increase the weight load to think about that which the jug holds. But the hollow jug gives us two choices – 1) To realise it’s emptiness can behold everything and 2) To fill it with that which will sustain a constant factor of life. We may fill the jug with contentment only when we realise the sustaining factor is contentment.

Realising emptiness depends how confidently one can believe and arrive at its hollow reality to begin afresh to accept they know nothing.






Our contribution towards the society begins with answering the inadequacies of the individual minds by realising the completeness.

Desires are like bees looking for honey in the cactus. And thus humans like bees build desires in small worlds of entrapment instead of looking for the honey in the infinite hive.

Being different doesn’t mean achieving superiority over others. It is about simply finding constant wave of one consciousness and remaining in it through all actions of life.

Consciousness when realised as one expression through all beings – living and non-living, opens our eyes to respect, love and admire this creation, preservation and destruction just like a child creates a sand castle and destroys it once the game is over.

Aloneness is mistaken as loneliness. Aloneness opens the doorway of the infinite mind while loneliness opens the gateway to unease of company.

Power of non-violence becomes absolute when the opponent humbles to peace, love, patience and forgiveness. Non-violence is not fully functional by observing passive resistance to physical, mental or verbal assault.

Punishment for wrong acts is to be induced through introspective wisdom as a reformation of the culprit mind.

Healing is a universal nature of non-violence! Non-violence is the nature of Universal Consciousness.

Quest for life ends when a dying human, animal or plant and the planet receives the first drop of water to quench thirst.

This body lasts till the breath lasts and this earth will last till the wind lasts. This body is as immortal as the planet. It will live on and on till it can breathe.

The big fish will think it is the biggest in the world until it comes to notice a giant fish. The mind is only imagine size of matter floating on the infinite bosom of the universal consciousness.

We identify intuitive perception through the everlasting stillness which opens the mind to perceive, listen and speak as one expression of the universal consciousness to heal, sustain and strengthen life as a universal solution to creation.

Trend of civilisation is what the human organism arranges according to percption of nature educated and inculcated as knowledge.

Journey of life is realised as relief from the constant aching for joy out of sorrow when birth and death becomes an illusion.

Death of body is death of creation. Birth of body is birth of creation.

What is Sadhana?
Sadhana is repeated attempt at achieving constant state of joy, pleasure, non, peace, happiness, calm, bliss endlessly.

What is effort in Sadhana?
You as the body, beautiful, looking and smiling or crying is the effort of God.

If man kills man is it effort in Sadhana?
It is effort of God failing. When man kills man it is the effort of God failing non-violence, peace, healing, compassion, love and life. It is the One consciousness failing expression in two or more bodies. But still it is effort in Sadhana.

Absolute is not a thought reminding the needs for the body, mind and senses. The stillness of absolute is veiled by their needs.

Knowledge is realised as operation of infinite consciousness which is constant and permanent when we realise creation originating from the seed is nothingness. Knowledge is born from realising – nothing is infinite.

You inner strength is your infinite will, your path, your way, your goal, your palace.

When we lose life we we gain new breath, new space and endless time to live in liberation.

When we lose life we we gain new breath, new space and endless time to live in liberation.

Forgetting everything is knowing nothing. Knowing nothing is non-existence of ego.
Three ways to realise truth as universal consciousness – Shravanam, Mananam, Nidhidhyasanam (listening to truth, reminiscing truth, direct experience of truth).

Learning begins with passive awareness of the process originating from the infinite quietude of the mind.

Learning begins with passive awareness of the process originating from the infinite quietude of the mind.

The mind jumps in our attempts at making expression constant thus distracting the latter’s consistency, balance, poise, stopping expression from realising freedom. Infinite will is the key to realising constant expression seeking freedom.

God begins with curiosity and curiosity leads to contemplation which in turn creates confusion. Confusion is a state of mind which demands stillness. Stillness reveals the infinite nature of the mind.

Sports is an expression of the consciousness to realise every strategy played to perfection holds no motive for win or defeat or contrivance. It is to play the game watching how life moves non-violently.

Fame is just an idea, perception, evidence of the knowledge of work originating from the authority – the Creator. Fame is arranged by our memory of the entity – living and non-living.

Practice and non-attachment liberates the mind from imagery perception of fruits of action.

Freedom is the birth right for all beings living in entrapment of illusion which is the teacher testing our infinite will to fight for liberation.

Concern which bothers is not how neighbors, society and world relate with us. Concern starts with how constantly has the mind been in peace, non-violence and withdrawal in interpersonal communication.

Cause and effect in action and reaction becomes non-violent when action arises from a centralised mind.

Everywhere in this creation there are many languages spoken by all beings of varying species which communicate love, anger, hate, joy, jealousy, pride, happiness, pain and pleasure, hunger, sleep, wake, sex as activity and gender and everything. Similarly consciousness as God!

The nature of the universal consciousness is creation, preservation and destruction and the instrument is the atom.

Cost of human life is the price of mother earth and cost of mother earth is price of the solar system and cost of the solar system is price of the universe and cost of the universe is the priceless universal consciousness.

Eternity is that which happened yesterday as death of the immortality never reborn.

Destiny is the conscious being pervading eternally through all moments of past, present and future. Observe the continuity of consciousness which never changes.

Scientific research is defined by curiosity and the reason for curiosity is the intrigue of the universal consciousness. When the intrigue gets exposed the research becomes a continuum constantly realising laws of creation, preservation and destruction.

Respect, love, compassion and forgiveness toward all beings is worship of God.

Death is immortality of reality. The reality we live is dying to realize the immortal consciousness.

Reality binds me, liberates me. It is the reality which reminds me nothing in my mind and body is controlled and sustained as life.

Forgiveness is to learn to still your mind and settle in the emptiness which beholds infinite love and love is the universal consciousness.

A culture is one which is bred by sowing the seed of thought allowed to grow into a tree which shelters, nurtures and extends life in peace.

Expressions are infinite and yet the same among all beings. And they repeat infinite times as hunger, sleep, speech, action, violence, non-violence, love, hate, joy, pain, happiness, sorrow and so on.

A curse is lifted when one heals the pain of the ego by realising universal consciousness is that permanent joy which never draws the veil of imaginary picture over the physical eyes. See through the eyes of the infinite instead.

Being conscious is to be the reality which never changes.

An expression becomes God when it begins to sustain the environment as growth thus empowering each individual with infinite patience, non-violence and constant focus on the responsibility of daily action.

Friends don’t understand friendship because time never determined their expectations.

Life is movement and we follow the movement which brings us the need.

Don’t fall short of the universal consciousness by placing your immediate necessity as desire.

Freedom of expression can only be realised when we realise the movement of time is stillness.

We cannot understand and realise God until we conquer the restless mind and bring it to a state of permanent stillness and quietude and everlasting peace.

Time is consciousness. Space born out of time needs duration to change its dimension. and in the process of change space doesn’t make an effort to realise time. It only tries to catch up with time.

We can use will to remain absorbed in worries or infinite calm. But the will itself is the calm which we fail to realise as infinite strength by limiting its power with narrow perception.

Prayer is not wish, prayer is not affirmation, prayer is not reciting. Prayer is not believing existence of God. Prayer is about realising consciousness is infinite love which attained never reduces. Prayer is about holding everybody to remind and make them realise the true nature of consciousness is infinite love, compassion and healing.

Objective knowledge liberates the mind. Subjective knowledge conflicts and shrinks the mind into a narrow world of constant dissatisfaction.

To understand how the universal consciousness operates, one has to first realise how the consciousness gives birth to the universe with love. Love gives birth, diversifies and multiplies and yet all that sprouts from the origin into numerous species remain strung to the infinite love.

My cousin asked looking at her patients, “Why are so many diseased and suffering?” I was in tears as she and I felt and spoke, “In the immediate, when we look at suffering we feel care and love and compassion and look to heal. But what caused the disease is negligence and also any act committed out of motive. If we had love, care and compassion then for those acting wrong and if the person who is acting wrong had inculcated spiritual hygiene, then purity of intellect would take care of purity of flesh and purity of flesh would take care of purity of the environment”.

One definition of truth can be realised and experienced and implemented as action when one arrests all questions pertaining to God.

We celebrate the new which isn’t born yet in anticipation of a tomorrow joy. Instead of living in joy of anticipation of the coming new beginning be that ever new joy born out of that light and spread it, extend it and the worth begins to sustain every being as life and breath quenching the thirst for ever lasting peace and calm.

We live in a world of many choices which are not our choices. The choices we make are not what we choose, but what we are prompted and tempted by the available matter of gross reality.

Material comfort can only relieve pain temporarily but cannot offer comfort to the restless mind seeking permanent joy. It is only wisdom which offers permanent peace to help the human body heal, function better, move better and balance life to an efficient point of structured civilization.

Truth can never be taught. It can only be experienced and experience happens through practice and detachment. What is taught is only definition of truth, description of truth but not the truth itself.

To understand work, empty your mind. An empty mind beholds the completeness of the consciousness which is the origin to the idea, method and instrument of work.

Liberation is suffering, entrapment and oppression. When liberation happens our choices die to a limitless point of being choicelessly free from all that restricts freedom of expression.

A concept is born from a practice. The practice is born from a thought and the thought is born from knowledge and knowledge is born from knowing and knowing is born from perception. Perception is born from awakening of the universal consciousness.

Observe the world with sorrow. It is only then you will realise Joy.

When love happens it doesn’t happen momentarily and neither does it prove it as newborn. The love I.e, the cosmic mother says ‘I was always here and for once you turned and looked’.

Things happening the imperfect way is a judgemental perception but that does not give us the right to ostracise those who are facing the struggle to balance life.

The perfect peace happens when you give away everything that disturbs you.

A dream manifestation is about realising a world the way we want it to be and it can only manifest to perfection when we begin to see it is only universal  compassion which operates as one stream.

There no sugar in relishing success when failure us just round the corner. What remains permanent is attitude and the attitude is everlasting peace, simplicity, contentment, and grace of the universal consciousness.

Meditation is not about concentrating at a focal point for prolonged periods. Concentration is the beginning ending into meditation of the conscious activity of the still mind and body and soul to realise the operation of the universal consciousness through entire creation.

What happens thru the day speaks for a night’s sleep and the sleep wakes up a morning of beginnings unknown ridden with debts we owe to society.

To live in absolute peace one needs infinite patience and to live in infinite patience one needs to learn non-violence and when we live in non-violence then we love and love sprouts eternal life.

When you work you know who the fruits will go to. It is your attitude which comes to fruition of many worlds of sorrow or liberation.


Rig Veda Says – Live Together, Learn Together, Progress Together Spiritually

I am back to my pedagogic ways. I don’t know why I love talking about philosophy so much, but the ones interested out there, I thank you for reading my article with patience. I just realize that these principles are so beautiful that my personal experience with practicing them have given me wonderful results although, I love breaking rules all the time. I have already been accused by a fellow countryman and he even rated and measured me with an inch tape and said that he “thinks” I don’t practice any of the basic laws from the Yoga Sutras.

My dear brother, I really thank you for reminding me that I need to be on my toes all the time and also bring all my other friends and request them to hold hands and walk together, learn together and progress together. I have a very wonderful Sanskrit sukta (verse) to share with all the readers, if they would like to listen in voice (courtesy album – Himalayan Chants) as well as read the meaning.

Samgachchatwam, Samvadatvam, Sam Vo manaamsi, Jaanataam|

Devabhagam, Yatha purve Sam janaana Upaaasate||

  • Rig Veda

This verse means that as a community, we must be united and live together in harmony, walk together, learn together and understand each other. Everybody must hold on to one common noble thought or belief system. We can even further broaden it by saying, that the learning is more of shared wisdom. What we realize the essential truth of life to be we shall share it amongst each other commonly. If we face any strife, any terrible circumstances, then we shall stick together, stand united and support each other and face the passing storm. There are more verses after this too, which I am willing to share if the need arises.

I would like to share one small example which I noticed once when I was travelling through Ladakh in Jammu and Kashmir. We had visited Tso Moriri Lake and planned to stay there for about a night. This is one of the most remote regions of India where there is no electricity and no clean sanitation facilities. The Tibetans have made possible whatever they could by investing their hard-earned money to construct rooms for rent on top of their homes and many travel agents from Leh, pitch tents for tourists.

All the food supplies get transported from Leh town to all the remote areas of Ladakh. Also, the main supplies are transported from New Delhi and it is a tedious journey for 18 hours from New Delhito Ladakh. There are restaurants in Tso Moriri Lake but the food is very expensive for backpackers. The next morning we just took a walk by the lake and got back in time for lunch. There was a small eat out right in front of the Buddhist Gompa (monastery).

Both of us were very hungry and we ordered Indian Rotis and Dal and we wanted to eat a heavy meal. Probably, we would have eaten about five rotis each and till then, they said they had no more to give. We were perplexed at this as we could see that they had enough wheat flour stored but refused to offer us more only because we had the power of “money” to pay and afford. I understood immediately, that they were storing the food for the rest of their village members who would also be stopping by to eat.

This is how they stood together and supported each other. No matter they earn money or not, but supporting each other by sharing what they have and not looking to serve selfish motives needs a lot of determination. I had a first-hand experience of this when I saw them use their discrimination to look after the needs of those people who will be hungry. The attitude of caring for others is rarely noticed. Tibetans stand united no matter what happens to them.

In other cities, towns and villages, the attitude is different and I know this happens in many countries. People in general, once they start getting successful with their businesses and go higher up the ladder of monetary success, immediately tend to develop arrogance and even forget their close friends. They start giving more importance to the rich customers and when it comes to the poor and needy, they just get treated like worms or mosquitoes.

The general monetization of the society has led to this anarchy where man values another man only in terms of money. If money is going to be the deciding factor for every human to gain access to food, water, shelter and clothing, there could be nothing more degrading than this. The basic necessities of life are being decided by certain means which are nothing but the ends to die for.

I can simply say one thing that ever since the industrial revolution took place, it induced further greed into mankind. The man who thought could run a factory “conceived” the idea how he could enslave human beings and make them work for pittance and make huge profits out of it. His neighbour saw how he could compete with him. The third man from another city noticed this development and thought, “I have the resources. Maybe, I can draw a boundary and claim ownership rights and hold them at ransom. This would bring me a lot of money.”

The original inhabitants of the land of these natural resources were soon kicked out and all the corporate industries, bureaucrats, politicians and governments – the rich and powerful started kicking these minnows wherever they tried to settle down and accumulated maximum possible resources only for themselves. Human rights – What are human rights? One man attacks another’s rights to expression and even after attacking them, claims to have motivation for human rights. I would say he says, “I have the motivation to claim that I have all the human rights to attack another human’s rights to express. That’s the spirit of human rights I want, to spread in the society and inspire young individuals to follow. ” – “Applause & Whistles”

Today, all over the earth, every bit of natural resource or reservoir of resources has been claimed to be a property of the government or processing industries which leaves the common man nowhere but to hanker for a job, break his bones, sweat his blood out for a few pennies so he could afford something for his family. Is this right living? All, the economic boom, rising GDP, increasing sales in the automobile industry etc, is nothing but a mirage to show that everything is happening right.

The rich wants to earn more and gain higher success by bouncing off the next man who aims to do something equally good or opposite to what Mr. Rich has attained. As I stated the Rig Veda here, the world seems to be completely opposite of what it states. Putt one another so you can stay on top. Chop another’s head so you can prove yourself tall. Funnily, this attitude has been there in religion, but it has stepped into the spiritual world as well. When “guru A” starts to talk wisdom and sees another “guru B” rise up to fame, guru A immediately criticizes guru B and tries to defame him and pull him down so he can draw all the crowd to his party and make more out of donations. Even the self-professed spiritual guru feels insecure to lose money and fame.

This article may not sound all that interesting, or I may not make too much sense over here, (insecurity seems to get over me as well) but all I want to say is, it is time that we wake up, realize what the essential need of the hour is. We hardly realize what is more important. Is it important to look after one another’s basic needs or ignore the dying and keep on accumulating wealth? The arrogance of wealth, societal status and position has taken its toll on the human principles of civilization and has even destroyed the core of education system.

Walk together, hold your hands, smile at each other, lend a hand to the one who cannot stand, be compassionate, say a few words of love to the one who is in sorrow, give bread to the one who is starving, if you see one in need of money, don’t fear to lose your wealth but rather be fearless to share, never feel ashamed to say that you lack knowledge, but rather feel proud to say that you want to learn because you don’t know. Above all, if we see that somebody is not able to progress at our speed, then help them and support them till they can catch up, but don’t ignore them and put them through turmoil.

We need a new world order! (Do I make sense?) – Blah…blah…blah…!

Yoga – An Idea of Excellence!

Who am I to teach Yoga? Who is a qualified teacher? What makes me a qualified and dignified teacher? And, is there a point of perfection, which remains perfect forever – and is this the perfection… which certifies and qualifies me as a qualified teacher?

It upsets me to notice imperfection in many people. None of them are so qualified, and unique, and methodical to be considered as teachers. When does the teaching actually begin, and when and who decides, the teacher should begin teaching, and who names the person as the ‘teacher’?

The minute I am upset, when people start controlling others, begin deciding for themselves, then it means neither, am I perfect, nor am I liberated and free enough to disallow decisions controlling my perceptions, and senses, which get drawn by their magnetic afflictions, allusions, to step out into the world, and constantly project the “attack-defense” mechanism, to protect myself. Am I really teaching, or am I protecting myself, from being neglected, from  the fear of entering a state of withdrawal, where the entire world has begun to forget me, which finally might push me into a state of where I may remain unrecognized, and unappreciated forever?

I haven’t “Taught”, yet! That is the truth… and I have only learned – step 1, step 2, step-3 of Yoga, which is just one school of thought…. one particular  instruction… and how many hours does the mind waste on observing the perfection of body alone, and in this observation, what kind of attachment do we develop… which blocks us from understanding the neutral consciousness? The minute I admire a wonderful yogi, and want to become like him or her, am I not imitating an imitation of Yoga?

Who am I to teach Yoga? Who is a qualified teacher? What makes me a qualified and dignified teacher? And, is there a point of perfection, which remains perfect forever – and is this the perfection… which certifies and qualifies me as a qualified teacher?

The idea to excel, and constantly fighting against the fear of failure, bad performance, wrong knowledge, is another way of fighting for right knowledge. Is there a right knowledge… and is there wrong knowledge? The knowledge of any science can be right, as well as wrong, and the knowledge of being a teacher, applies the same – could be right, could be wrong!

The teacher cannot happen in me, until I haven’t arrived at the eternal moment which blossoms and flows spontaneously… which means.. there is one point in the entire lifespan.. which isn’t controlled by time, space, idea, fear…. insecurity, pride.. jealousy, arrogance, and a cribbing sense to “DO”, to “EXCEL”, which are also simply nothing but ideas. No person is qualified… to do or be anything. Even Gauthama Siddhartha, was not a qualified teacher. He never excelled in anything, and he never carried this zeal, passion, and enthusiasm to teach and accumulate students…!

The moment the teacher is born, the teacher happens… it is the death of the student. The whole opportunism faces death, and the teacher keeps on teaching himself, herself! No sooner, the person has realized he or she has not become a teacher, there are no lessons to learn, which means there is nothing to impart, decide, begin and establish, then there is nothing right or wrong to feel or question about, decide and act!

To Guruji – today! (In his love!)

“Realized souls never see this door as a door. They don’t see the wall as a wall. They only see everything around them as, God They don’t see things, normal, like we do”. – Guruji

The universal principle of the Guru-Disciple relationship is eternal and established on a permanent platform of universal compassion, absolute love, and total forgiveness. There is no way to determine or judge who has practiced and perfected these principles, except – can only strive to withdraw and attune to the three natures of the Consciousness! My increasing love, and fondness for, Guruji, had to stop short of “conditioned attachment”, to the “image” of the “Guru”, to realize the formless! I had come back to Chennai for a few months in 2003. In December 2003, one night he appeared in my dream and said, “I won’t be living on earth for long”. I reflected on it, and knew in advance, I would be receiving this message in some form or other.

Many days, he would message me mentally, “I am not coming today”. The clairvoyance would confirm itself, while I would be waiting outside his doorstep, to receive a personal message sent through his driver.

I grew beyond this connection with a ‘man’ or a ‘personality’ who was ‘Shri Pattabhi Joise’, to realize the true worth of the Consciousness – mandatory, not to cling onto the, Guru! Whatever the teaching maybe, whatever the outer perfection of the body one may have to attain, but finally, nothing is achieved without annihilating the ego. Pride, at moment of our lives, any second, if allowed to occupy our minds, then it is a sure sign of downfall – an insult to our humility, which remains ignored and shut, mirroring the conscience. I had drop this pride, and embrace the simplicity he beheld, yet displaying the dignity, of a teacher, and humility of the student. Constant reflection was, “Non-expectation, from everything,  – every being! The Self, ever is and will be – and this is the only truth we can hold onto, achieve, live, and express!”.

It was late 2005, and I was already feeling irritated with the life in Mysore, and I felt a strong urge for a change of place. And I was also almost about to complete with learning the Primary Series. I was still wondering, what kept him waiting and unwilling to finish with me and start the intermediate lessons. Pressure was building up on my father to support me further as well. And it all accumulated into one situation of unease. I just wanted to leave Mysore, but not Guruji. But finally, in early 2006, he started with the finishing postures, but I was sad, and only wished I had met him so late. Tears of emotions of having learned through self-introspection, and withdrawal, wouldn’t be enough.. and I could see, it was time to snap the chord. He made it obvious to me the next morning, as he showed signs of indifference, meaning, I was free to leave.

Earlier, the previous three years, whenever I used to restlessly reflect and wonder if I should stop midway, or ask him in silence, if he could complete it quickly, so I can move on, and teach somewhere, he would never allow it, and messaged it with a positive note, to humble me further.. and continue learning under him – an intuitive message, “It wasn’t time yet!”.

Months in advance he knew, I wouldn’t be with him after the summer of ’06. I hadn’t planned my date of departure, but still he knew I won’t be coming back, and somehow he was successful in breaking this attachment. He started to ignore me, reduced his response to my emotions. He kept me totally away from him, so I must find my way out slowly. The last couple of months in 2006 were really tough to handle. On one side, I couldn’t continue due to personal circumstances, and on the other side, I couldn’t leave him due to the connection I had developed with him.

But all through these three years I spent with him, everyday I learned something new and different. I learned what tolerance and patience, and unconditional love is. It was a direct lesson by watching him impart wisdom of the Self, through practical asanas, while in mind – one has to constantly connect and communicate with the, Guru! He taught everybody in a different way. He did push students for perfection, with the same force, allowing each to progress at their own pace, but what he gave to each, is unique and incomparable. He never discriminated or gave special attention to the one who was extremely good to ignore the novice.

He did show that he was attached to gold and money. He did show he was living in luxury. But, I noticed that he knew very well who he was and what he was doing. One part of him was attached to materialism, while another part of him was resting in the Supreme Absolute. There was no doubt he had realized, God. His body was living in luxury, masked by the Universal Consciousness, which he knew!.

I left Mysore with a heavy heart and I could never come back to see him. But I continue to reflect his teachings – a very valuable flow, to this day. Once I asked him, about realized souls. I just mentioned about some great yogis, their attainments, and he replied, “Realized souls never see this door as a door. They don’t see the wall as a wall. They only see God They don’t look at things as normal, like we do”, meaning, they all see the infinite hidden in the finite.

Guru, is the dispeller of darkness, one who leads you to the ‘light’ within you. If somebody is learning from a Guru, he or she must reach out to the person inside, and learn to communicate in consciousness more than the body. Body can bend, muscles can stretch, and one can sweat night and day to prove or flaunt perfected flexibility, which is nothing but a, “Michael Jackson – Moonwalk”. The process doesn’t unveil till the Guru in us blossoms with or without body flexibility. In fact, the ego increases on pride over greater fluidity of the bones and flesh. The purpose of learning is wasted.

I always felt, I left the class everyday with something precious…. more precious than Ashtanga Vinyasa. I learned from him…. it is not important how well we can bend our body; it is not important how far we can stretch. This is just a primary preparation for our bodies to be able to sit for long periods of time in meditation. But through this process of bending and stretching, it is important to attune to the Self, watch the mind process. In the process of observing oneself, we get to realize the changes happening within, slowly revealing brief glimpses of emptiness, a state of permanence. It is obvious to feel happy over maintaining a slim and perfect body, totally flexible.. but, the point is not to perfect a stunt.

Over the years, I was not able to perfect the asanas he taught me, but still, I learned to flex my ego as much as I could. He always, reminded me subtly that it is not important to bend your body, but it is important to bend your ego. Bend your mind, and control it so you don’t get attached to the asanas and don’t let your pride settle in, at any point of time. Pride, is the main factor, which draws our attention, forcing us to project and believe, the outer image of who we are – a perfected teacher, dancer or anything…. which masks our humility.

Many of us miss the inner learning and remain attached to the physical self which is bound to perish any moment. People forget that. Our pride makes us forget that one small accident or a mishap could stop us from practicing yoga for life. Then where is the body which was, before? Is that the true learning, Guruji, has been giving us – perfection of the physical body? No. His teaching was blended with connecting to the consciousness through physical practice. We may think and believe, it is we who practiced, and progressed.. and perfected.. and regardless the effort we put in, it is the Guru, who perfects us, shapes us..!  No disciple, will be able to make it, would have made it… if he hadn’t unleashed the energy blocks. He can stifle, stop, regardless our abilities to perform better…! The Guru, can also decrease our excellence! And, this is the reason to remain humble, and not aim for egoistic perfection, and once it gets demeaned or we feel unappreciated, provoked… as if nobody has the right to insult us. Question for us, “Who is the person in us, that wants to be somebody “Great”, just because, there was a, Guruji, or, B.K.S. Iyengar, or, a, Jiddu Krishnamurti. That’s not the point or principle – to copy! Everybody, is only copying a text book, scripture, and mimicking the act – which is not “Teaching”, neither, “Learning”!

The way, is to withdraw, instead of showing it out to the world – “I do this.. I am this or that.. and, all of you should come and acknowledge my credentials… offer me a position to rule..”. If this is what Yoga, has done to everybody, then we might as well be a movie or pop star.

When I heard finally, that Guruji passed away on 18th May 2009, I remained silent, reflected and paid my respect, “His duty is over for this lifetime, and he has left his body. But, we must keep his teachings alive. Salutations to the ‘Master’!”

To Guruji – With love (Shri. Pattabhi Jois)

Three years of love, discipline, patience, endurance, and humble submission under Guruji! I love him, and remain gratuitous for humbling my ego, by teaching me nothing – the most important thing I learned – was – he never wanted me to learn what he was teaching. He unlearned me!

The whole excitement about learning something new everyday, a new posture, arriving at a new spiritual experience, to be able to enjoy watching the body flexing to perfection, was cut short with constant obstacles like cramps, and stiffness! But, Guruji, increased my frustrations much more.. by introducing me to a new lesson once every month, and also by making me wait… wonder.. speculate.. and doubt.. by not teaching me or assisting me with any posture at all for a period of six months and more. The process of Guru-Disciple relationship is not a definitive structure, or theory which may apply one and same to the students, and no Guru, will be the same or teach in the same manner, and no Guru (if enlightened), will train his/her students alike. To each one – they will impart lessons suited to their consciousness and body growth. Understanding this, and keeping it close to my conscience, Guruji, purposely gave me this humbling experience… and pushed me into greater silence, and withdrawal.

He taught me to practice non-expectation, accept obediently, with a neutral and humble, non-questioning mind, what he imparts directly, or even if he ignores me for days together, it is still a way of shaping up the mind, body, and consciousness – the wholesome aspect of realization! Hard are the ways, ridden with pitfalls, and hurdles, and each effort was equally filled with greater failure…. and he stamped my ego down every time I aimed at achieving success.

Never cling onto the ideas of achievement, success and failure. What you receive,  is that which is your portion, being filled into you by the universe!

There was always one corner in my heart which would pop out and question, “When is he going to finish with the primary series?” The human mind is so strange and difficult to control.

Most of the times, we communicated mainly through silence. I always sensed his answers to my questions were transmitted through silence. The immense respect I had for him, was the reverence for the Consciousness hidden behind the mask of, Shri. A.K. Pattabhi Jois – and a Master of such honour, and dignity, imparted one consistent lesson – “Silence will reveal everything.”. He just knew how to speak through silence, hint signs of indiscipline, lack of concentration and dedication, and even anger – which was rare, and I had to catch it and shift my mind and flow. One day, as I was practicing, suddenly, the two words from the Yoga Sutras resonated in my mind, and they were, Abhyasa, which means practice and, Vairagya, which means detachment. I looked at him and asked, “Aren’t, Abhyasa, and, Vairagya, the two most important principles for realization? He gazed at me with his usual compassionate smile and quoted a few shlokas in Sanskrit which I don’t remember, and said, “Yes, both are very important. Continuous practice and detachment helps you progress and they must be adopted for the practice of yoga.”


Later on, I contemplated on what he said, and it revealed more answers. If we don’t have practice and detachment moving together, then we are not freeing the mind from aim, and ambition and goals. Each time we notice an achievement or result, they are simply to make us realize, it as a consequence – the consequence should never be the ultimate aim or destination. Abhyasa, and, Vairagya, are two wings of the bird flying across the Oceanic Void higher, and higher! Like this, there are many examples which I could share. But it was only after I attended Guruji’s birthday for the first time, in 2004, our relationship started to get closer. It wasn’t obvious for anybody. Not even for me did he show that he loved me, but it was just understood between us. He always made it a point to maintain a healthy distance with his dignity and self-respect.

Another day, during my practice I asked him, “Guruji, how do I get rid of my vasanas (sense pleasures and desires)? He said, “As you practice, it will all come out on its own.” I wasn’t satisfied with this answer and I repeated my question, “But how do I get rid of them?” He again repeated the same words and then I just kept quiet and thought to myself, maybe I should meditate harder (but we just cannot do things hard. Just string the instrument, and play the right note till it plays right). It was time, he had to teach me, Baddhakonasana, a posture in which we have to bend our legs at the knees, with the feet placed close to each other sticking to the buttocks, and gradually, spread open the bent knees flat on the floor sideways. The pain would be excruciating and it has caused injuries for many people including myself. I was complaining of pain for days and I couldn’t walk properly. Then suddenly, Guruji walked up to me smiling and gave me Tiger Balm and said, “Use this, it will be good for your pain”. I was surprised and thought to myself, “Does he really mean it?”. It was for me to realize, I shouldn’t have questioned like that. I realized, “Never cling onto the ideas of achievement, success and failure. What you receive,  is that which is your portion, being filled into you by the universe!”

Guruji was also very strict about his tradition and caste and religion. Above all, he was very strict about being a vegetarian. I just asked him once, “Guruji, doctors say egg is good for health. Do you think it’s fine if I take eggs?” I asked him this question because on the previous day I had eaten two boiled eggs. He smiled and said, “No, you should not eat eggs. No non-vegetarian food, only vegetarian.” It was early New Year in 2005 and I wished him a happy New Year. He looked at me and said, “English New Year, only for English people. For Indians, New Year is Ugadi”. Ugadi is the New Year celebrated by the people of Karnataka around 27th of March.

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Guruji- A tribute! (Shri. Pattabhi Jois)

Thought to practice and obey – “Never criticize or judge the Guru, whether they appear to be, right or wrong”.

I was so stupid, I didn’t come prepared. So I had to just remove my shirt and practice with my tracks on. He started with the Surya Namaskar -1 and finished it short the first day. As it was my first time, I experienced tremendous energy – sort of receiving initiation from the Guru!. Every touch from his fingers, and the pressure from his palms had a healing touch. The way he communicated through silence was more than enough and never gave me the feeling or need, to talk or engage him in any kind of conversation. 

Even though the first part was short and easy, it wasn’t simple enough for me to memorize the sequence, and refrain from committing mistakes. If I erred, he would make me start all over again. And, it so happened, on my third day, I was forgetting the sequence, and he made me start all over again at least 12 times, and I ran out of steam, but he continued to push me harder. I was just loving the perfectionist teaching a perfectionist.

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Weeks and months passed by, and I slowly started to realize the greatness of my, Guru, whom I hadn’t accepted as a Guru yet. I was still testing him to see how true and qualified he was, to be a Guru. In spiritualism when it comes to realizing the Self, both the Guru and the Disciple have the right to test each other. One day, he was observing me in silence as usual. It was one of those days, when the mind gets muddled up with cravings (totally sexually connecting to one of my girl friends), and he was quietly reading all of them. 

So, as he was looking at me, I just turned around and asked him, “Guruji,  when I go back to my room, I am always filled with worldly (indirect hint – sexual) thoughts”. He smiled and said, “You should not think of unnecessary things, you should think of God”. That was so sweet to hear, as it I realized, he was looking to answer my thoughts. Somewhere, he had this childlike concern, which filled me with immense warmth. He didn’t judge! There was never one moment where I felt his absence for the three years I lived in Mysore. 

He was always quick to notice me lose focus and dedication, not offering hundred percent of myself, and he would show it very subtly, but in a stern manner through his expressions and energy. His silence was more vociferous than his words. His silent and subtle disciplining methods, always pushed me to focus harder. 

The basic and most important way for winning over the mind is to control the senses, and resist all sorts of temptations, not falling for the opposite sex, or both –  but the very idea of being sexual, is ostracized in most schools of spiritualism.. Attraction isn’t right or wrong, but applying wisdom with discrimination and intuition helps one understand the ‘timing’ as appropriate or not, to flow with the senses. Reducing the needs of sense cravings is not easy, and developing will power to weaken them, requires a lot of mental discipline.

He would be sitting outside in the hall, but still he would know when to come and assist me in a posture which I had been struggling with. He would continue to stay upstairs and not pay attention, and I would be thinking, ‘Maybe, he doesn’t remember he has to help me with this asana. But, he would surprise me with his precise timing of appearance whenever I needed assistance, and this happened every time. He knew everything. He saw everything, and He heard everything, in SILENCE and made sure, I don’t talk, but kept it dignified enough, so I open my mind to tune into his thoughts. He just read me and scanned through my person… completely!

There would be days when I’d be feeling low in confidence, wondering if I practiced well losing hope on making progress. He would sense it right away, and smile at me with a comforting expression, “Your practice is really nice”. That would instantly uplift me, offering inspiration to practice better. He always knew how to work with energies. I would constantly hear criticisms regarding his attitude from the locals, as well as foreigners. 

One day, I was travelling in the auto-rickshaw and the driver asked me what I was doing in Mysore. I told him I was learning yoga with Shri. Pattabhi Jois. The minute he heard the name, he started saying, “He is a very money-minded person and very stingy and never helps anybody with money”. I was shocked and upset to hear this and I heard the same sentence from many people. But I just kept quiet even though, I was criticizing him in my mind, the next day during the class… and I could see, he was upset. I felt embarrassed, since I knew you was making it clear, he was reading my thought.

But later on, I understood that he is not what he seemed from his appearance. The message was, to look through his consciousness. He was a man with a heart of great patience and love. And the relationship which we shared was special, but still… he showed the same love and patience to the rest… who came to learn from him. He was never biased. He answered every doubt and question of mine. A few words from him, most of the days, was wisdom enough!

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A tribute to my beloved Guru…..Father Jois – 1

It was on the 6th of January 2003. I was just about to complete my participation in a theatre production by the Madras Players of Chennai. It was a play written by the renowned author Mohan Narayanan called, “Ashwaha”. I was already feeling restless in Chennai and had a great passion for yoga and I wanted to be under a Guru, who could train me under the ancient system of training – the Gurukul, which was once upon a time, a “way of life” in India. After spending a year in the Bihar School of Yoga in Munger, which is in the state of Bihar, I had collected a lot of information about how vast the knowledge of yoga was and the various traditions existed in this limitless field with their respective Gurus. 

Among one of them was a tradition started by T.Krishnamacharya who was a great yogi himself. He had students with the likes of Shri K.Pattabhi Jois, B.K.S. Iyengar and T.K.V.Desikachar, his son and Jiddu Krishnamurti. I had met a few students in the yoga school from New Zealand and U.S.A. who were already practicing Ashtanga Yoga which inspired me to research further. I read a few books, and also spoke to a couple of more people, and they all had great praise for Father Jois…..that’s what they call him with love.

I called him on the 6th of January and the phone was ringing for a while and I didn’t know who would answer it. But to my surprise Guruji answered! He spoke in a very feeble voice, and asked me something in Kannada. I reacted, “Sir, I don’t understand Kannada, can you please speak in English?” He repeated his question in, English, “Who is speaking?”. I gave my introduction after which informed me the dates of registration were on the 11th, 12th and 13th of January, while the classes were beginning on the 16th of January (2003).

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I asked again, “Can I come on the 20th of January?” He replied sweetly, “No problem”. I continued to clear my doubt regarding course fees to which he was patient enough to extend his valuable time and I realised it was well within my budget which my father could afford to pay. I was so excited I was looking forward to seeing him and starting my lessons.

I finished my production commitments in Chennai and departed for Mysore on the 19th of January. I boarded a train in the morning for Bangalore and reached around 1:30 p.m. and had to board another passenger for Mysore, two and a half hours from the capital city of, Karnataka. I was not only excited but also worried about finding a reasonable accommodation…. and wondering what my meeting with him, would be like. I had a feeling, we were sensing and mentally communicating already. The imparting had commenced! A lot of questions and thoughts were running randomly across my head while I continued to enjoy the lush green fields and rivers. Especially, when you travel by this route one gets to notice farmers ploughing and picking crops, and the nature carved rock structures and also the small mountains and cliffs are just captivating. 

I reached Mysore in the evening, and I immediately looked for a room in a lodge right next to Parakkal Mutt and the night rest was long. The next morning, after a nice shower, I got myself readied for a meeting with Guruji. I reached his old home, (they call it old shala) which I wasn’t aware he had vacated long back and moved to a new and bigger place which was now the original institution.. The old home is much smaller,  which is where he had started teaching. He was a simple Sanskrit scholar making two ends meet and teaching yoga to the locals, until one day an, American knocked his door – doorway to his glory! 

I was waiting at the door step when his driver invited me to have a seat. He said, Guruji was upstairs and would be coming in a few minutes. A soon as I noticed him, I just stood up with respect and he gave me a stern look and asked me again something in Kannada which I couldn’t understand. I reminded him of our phone conversation we had and then he immediately recalled that I was from Chennai. He was silent for a few minutes, and as he was about to leave for the day putting on his sandals, he said, “Come on, Thursday”. That’s it. It was done. I said, “okay” and immediately started looking for an accommodation. I found one just about two kilometres away from his home – which was satisfying. They were a wonderful family.

I started my first day of practice on a, Thursday, 24th of January and I was enjoying every bit of my experience with him. He just behaved exactly word to word, as described in the book, “From here to nirvana” by Anne Cushman and Jerry Jones. I rang the bell which never worked properly, but still it managed to ring audible enough. I think it was more with the switch than the bell. He came and opened the door and looked at me and exclaimed, “Yeah, come”. Then he asked me to follow him upstairs and offered me a seat beside him, and requested me to enter the details in the register, pay the registration fee and the monthly course fee.

He then spoke in his usual ways, ‘You go down and wait.’, which I did! Within a few minutes, I could hear his hands gripping for support, against the concrete wall of the staircase and his slow footsteps. There was nobody except me and I was all alone that day. It wasn’t like the Bihar school of Yoga anymore, where we could practice yoga wearing anything. His strict orders were to remove my shirt and wear shorts, for easy stretching and mobility.

Everyday, same smile - three years of compassion!
Everyday, same smile – three years of compassion!

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Mind watching…

There is no possibility of remembering what has been found and understood, and later repeating it to oneself. It disappears as a dream disappears. Perhaps it is all nothing but a dream.” 
P.D. Ouspensky, A New Model of the Universe

How different does it feel to be watched?

The human body has no idea it is being watched all its life. And, what runs through this biological system, has its own way of living – whether it is seeking to know or not – it knows itself – knows who it is, and lives through the tantrums of the body, whether the body remains in good or bad health. Do we feed the mind or the body, to keep them alive, and does the mind ever face its death if not fed well?

The constant characteristic of the mind is solely, to watch all the time. What the mind watches and doesn’t – there can be no perfect analysis, we can assume. It is only the memory, which reminds us, time to time, what we have noticed, absorbed, interpreted, and the same memory helps us derive a new interpretation to the same object which was noticed millions or trillions of years back.

All of us are watched by someone or other and we cannot avoid being watched or watching. When we witness a murder or rape, we understand and undergo the trauma of the pain inflicted – and also the person suffering has received the memory of aggression from the aggressor. A slow death happens and the person enters a state of coma, unconsciousness or death.

When the mind watches somebody, this mind can be watched while watching, entering a state of decision, and decisive action. If the mind power is not extensive enough to prevent the aggressor, it means the mind hasn’t been in the precautionary mode, to fence the aggression. That is because, we believe and live in a physical world where we are forced to connect only with the body, thinking we have no way to protect ourselves mentally enough, to ward off the physical contact.

When we notice something interesting, such as – a book… there is a message of the author’s mind we try to connect with, and even though the message our minds derive through contemplation, may be partially intuitive, there are stored subconscious memories which aid us to connect with the book, to arrive at a decision – if we should go for it or not.

Is it possible avoid murder, rape, and burglary?

Firstly, we have to realize there are different kinds of thought forces active in different people’s minds and each thought force has its own magnetic force of attraction and repulsion. There is no God, who can come and intervene any atrocity, crime, poverty, or even stop a millionaire running into bankruptcy.

So, if we don’t for a while step back from what we are watching, to watch the space in between the sequential thoughts, producing different emotions, then we are not arresting judgment. And when we don’t arrest judgment, we have an action to witness, and a reaction to experience.

What we choose to get attracted to, are the objects which get drawn to us. And, we make unconscious choices, and we cannot even remember when we attracted a small blade to invite the wound on our chin while shaving. We even attract fatal accidents as much as, ward them off depending on the reflex of the moment – how quick the mind can jump out of the present senses of the environment it is engrossed in, able to find an escape route.

Finally, whether we succumb or defeat the challenging situation – the world seems to the mind, the psyche, totally real, and it is real. But the attempt – in spite of fighting for justice, revenge, starvation, poverty.. has to be only be fighting against that which disturbs us, or lures us too much… as even extreme pride, and happiness from the sensory is definitely bound to take is to the next point of disappointment.. and this betrayal by the future which keeps on promising happiness with bright hope, needs to arrested….and if we don’t give up on that moment of pain inflicted, and give up on the accused, then we are simply wasting precious time to give in more to the awareness of the timeless neutral, and in it lies all the answers and solutions, apart from those offered by the judiciary, police, political system – local and international.

The argument can continue with this question, “How can you ever think of asking someone in such a traumatic phase to internalize and let go, when it’s simply not easy to forget everything?”.

Who can we punish for what? Do we punish a man or a woman for cheating on their partners, or ignore, just because we have learned to take it as a way of life? Why isn’t cheating, dishonesty, connected with a similarly gruesome feeling such as rape? This is where we are prejudiced and judgmental, biased and discriminating. The elasticity of the mind even though decides to ostracize a criminal, the same mind chooses to fall in love with the subject. The same mind which stabs a knife, lends money, builds shelter and feeds somebody, undergoes infatuation and all kinds of temptations. It is not the characteristic of the person, it is the characteristic of the memory projected as the world, and this world is simply a memorized view, and we all have rehearsed characters playing multiple roles.

So, if we don’t for a while step back from what we are watching, to watch the space in between the sequential thoughts, producing different emotions, then we are not arresting judgment. And when we don’t arrest judgment, we have an action to witness, and a reaction to experience.

The person we are – is determined by the way we want to utilize the universal will – whether to control the straying mind and senses or whether to simply let go and sink into this moment of the will and look for ourselves, how it influences one mind in all of this universe, shaping into different emotions, and bodies – and different worlds – a complete portrayal of a mixed pot, and still the universe remains undisturbed.

The mother’s womb will always be the womb!

Brief moments of life, stored in our psyches – Neutral Revisited

What is exactly the neutral state of consciousness?

We first have to start with period moments of withdrawal from the screen of external awareness. A simple and spontaneous seeking leads us automatically to focus on our breathing… when we are suddenly take over with this feeling of the environment, holding us back down to a realm which is extremely downtrodden, aggressive on our sense perception, suffocating us day and night, from which we need to liberate ourselves completely, to such an extent that we just don’t want to get controlled by anybody or any circumstance of our lives anymore!

The outer realm which we perceive can only be detached, when we voluntarily step back from every kind of impulsive thought. That is when we face our inner persons.

To experience that ultimate freedom, we first have to experience extreme sorrow, and suffering.. pain.. disillusion. Such a moment in our lives, would not even allow us to breathe anymore. What is it that holds the breath? And, what is that intense emotion, feeling.. and sensation which constantly reminds us to breathe?

We may say, breathing is a natural and physiological as well as psychological phenomenon. But, the pattern of inhalation and exhalation itself is a stored pattern of memory – something reminding us who we are – we are alive – we are hungry – we need sex…. we need to talk… and so on.. and on!

What kind of desire is it, and why is it so strong, not to allow us to break out of this cycle? It is not very difficult to answer this question, and all of us know the reasons. There is no perfect state as neutral state which can be described as – only this is like this, or like that.. except that all gurus say, it is permanent bliss, calm, peace.. and unconditional love.. !

All of these are only words.. and mere terms to define something which may rather never get defined at all. If the person is not there to embrace us, then we rather not personify anything! And, this is how the seeking to realize a neutral mind, to reach a point of zero, where no negative or positive idea, imagination, fantasy, desire or ambition exists.

If the neutral state of the being is to be described – then understanding the universe is the best way. A state which, never allows us to sink into sorrow, grow greedy over desires, and a state which doesn’t even allow a speck of pride or arrogance, where every idea and visual perception of life becomes meaningless – and only the peace emanating from the core of our being, begins to connect with every energy particle as that infinite source – is the neutral consciousness.

End of all judgement is exactly the neutral state of consciousness!

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